Love, I need to tell you something

I need to tell you how I feel.

Or rather, I need to write this down.

I need to make sense of what I’m feeling. Of what’s happening.

I need you to know how I feel.

I know I don’t need to explain that this is how I operate. Writing. Processing. I know you know.

You know me.

You see me.

The real me.

You push me there when I’m drifting away. And you celebrate when I arrive.

But do you know how I feel?

I know you do. I’m sure you do. Somewhere. Deep down. But are you letting yourself?

I’m not throwing shade, I’m not being emotional, and I’m sure/I hope you can feel that energy through my words.

I just need you to know.

I just need to tell you in case you don’t know already.

And I just need to know what you think in return.

Please.

You heard it from my lips just a few days ago.

Do you remember? Were you listening?

I’ll tell you again, just in case.

I’ve realised everything changed exactly around the time I met you.

Everything I’ve been through, learnt from, overcome. You were always there.

You’ve watched me change. You’ve seen me change, my life around me and inside of me.

My relationship with you is so intrinsically tied to this spiritual journey I’ve been on these past few years.

And since I last saw you, I’ve realised the synchronicity of it all.

I feel a deep spiritual connection to you.

It’s amazing and it’s terrifying.

And I think you feel the same.

Our conversations, our connection, our chemistry.

It’s like we’ve done this a million times and I’ve known you for a million years or more.

When I’m with you there’s no one else around, time doesn’t exist.

When I was confronted with your feelings, to say you threw me for a loop would be an understatement.

I hadn’t yet faced this reality.

I hadn’t yet confronted my own feelings.

I hadn’t yet allowed myself to be there with you.

And the worst part of it all is that we were drunk and I can’t remember exactly what you said.

I remember the energy.

I remember how you made me feel.

But I can’t remember the words, and for me that is so hard.

Words mean everything. Words are magic.

So I’m asking you to please, give me your words. Speak your truth. Tell me what’s on your heart and mind.

I know you don’t like writing things down.

I know you carry fear, insecurity, suspicion and scepticism around with you.

I know this is influenced by your career.

But I also know that you know it’s time to free yourself from this.

I know you want to trust.

I know you want something more.

I know you feel something more.

And I know it’s scary as fuck.

But what I know, most of all, is that something this amazing and intense and magnetic and magical and spiritual, can’t be something to ignore, or be afraid of, or run away from.

If it’s not a fuck yes, it’s a no – remember?

Chase me. Run to me. Catch me.

I see you.

I’m waiting for you.

I love you.

Looking back, I could feel this connection since the beginning.

Even when you were most in your ego. Even when I was most in mine.

I know I shook your tower, I know it came crashing down, I know it’s left you standing amongst the rubble like wtf.

You’ve done exactly the same for me.

But over these years since we first met, while I talk of my spiritual journey, you’ve been on one of your own.

Do you recognise that? Have you reflected on that?

I know you know.

You’ve changed too. So much. And I am so proud of you.

You have become so much of what you always could have been. So much of who you are, deep down.

I’ve never felt like this before. There’s a fire in my chest every time I think of you. Burning in my heart chakra like nothing I’ve ever experienced.

You’ve opened me all the way up.

And I’ve let you all the way in.

And that in itself is terrifying.

I said to you that I’m not scared of being hurt, of being broken. That I’ve been there before and that I could go there again.

And it’s true.

To some degree. I know I’d survive it. I know I’d pick myself up again.

But I am scared.

I’m terrified.

That deep dark place where I’d fallen, just before I met you, I don’t want to go back there.

But I’ve let you into my heart.

It’s too late.

I’m taking the risk.

You’re there.

Where I know you know you belong.

But will you stay?

As I write this out, this clarity, this stream of consciousness, this understanding, this awakening, I know it’s truth because it feels like something I’m remembering.

Not epiphanies, when you know they’re lightning bolts from the divine.

But realisations, something from the deep subconscious truth of my mind.

Do you feel the same?

Like we planned this out?

Like we had/have lessons to learn, but finding one another and being together are part of it all?

When I say I didn’t “let myself realise” all of this when I first met you, it’s the truth.

I wasn’t ready.

My God, I wanted you so badly. “You”. Yet to realise who you really were.

But I was broken. I was damaged. I was at my lowest of low that year.

My break up, my competition, everything culminating in one deep dark hole.

I wasn’t lying when I said I was on my hands & knees on the floor, begging to be shown the way forwards.

At my lowest of love, praying to be shown the light, the way forwards, in service to whatever benevolent higher powers that be out there.

I had nowhere left to turn.

I was a mess.

Yet I was given grace.

I was shown.

I could feel the way forwards.

Things literally looked and felt different to me in the days/weeks/months that followed.

It was like I saw the world with new eyes. These people, places, things I was occupying my time with. They meant nothing. They were giving me nothing.

I needed to change. I needed to begin again. I needed to phoenix-rise from the ashes.

So I came home.

I left you.

Because I wasn’t ready for you.

But in the process, I found myself.

I healed myself.

I got to know myself.

I started loving myself.

And now there’s you again.

And now I realise there only ever was you.

Always.

I could always feel your presence. Or rather, your absence, in my life.

And now I see you and feel you.

And when I was with you, I realised, my life is changing again.

I can’t forget the touch of your hands, the kiss of your lips on my skin.

I can’t stop craving you.

I can’t stop dreaming of time and space and freedom to just be with you.

To explore you.

To be one with you.

What is going on in your heart and your mind?

What are your thoughts?

How do you feel?

Maybe this doesn’t resonate at all. Maybe I sound like a crazy person who you need a restraining order against. And if that’s the case, I’m sorry. Forget it all.

But this is my honest truth. My honest feelings. My honest insights.

I trust them.

And I trust you.

I trust you with my heart.

So I guess the only question left is, what are you going to do with it?

That’s what I’m asking you. That’s what I want you to answer.

We shared another experience the other night.

And I know you’re busy. I know you’re being confronted with your real life responsibilities right now.

I wonder if you have time to think of me.

I wonder what that night meant to you. What’s on your mind.

How you cope with the double life, the incongruence between your inner and outer worlds.

Or have I got the wrong end of the stick. Have I been led astray. Are you just like the rest of them but wearing a better costume, a more convincing disguise.

I know you have a lot on your plate. A lot of responsibilities. And commitments.

But you deserve to be happy.

And to be true to yourself.

And to know that the only burdens you ever bear are the ones that you choose.

You said yourself you want devotion.

To be devoted.

What does that look like?

What does that feel like?

What else is love, true spiritual love, but devotion?

I know you need to think, and to process, and to figure things out.

And there’s no time limit, you do you.

But the longer you wait the more the decision will be made for you.

I want you to choose me.

I implore you.

I couldn’t mean this more.

Every fibre of my being sings in alignment with this desire.

But I have no expectations.

As much as I don’t want to be hurt.

As much as I want you.

I know that it’s out of my control.

It’s in your hands.

And in the hands of the divine.

I know I am safe.

I know I am loved.

I know I am on my way to living happily ever after.

I just have to wait & see.

But you’ve left me.

Abandoned. Used. Disrespected.

I haven’t heard from you.

I know you’re busy, but is it really impossible?

I opened so wide to you the other night.

I was so vulnerable and honest.

I let you in. I wanted to. And you wanted to be there.

But what is this, this silence. This void. This space.

I don’t know where you are.

What you’re thinking.

What will come next.

And I’m triggered.

By all the men who have ever broken my heart.

By all the men who have ever left me.

And I know that’s my shit.

And I’m not putting it on you.

I’m just explaining how I feel.

You’re sneaking around.

You’re lying.

Not least of all to yourself.

As well as all those around you.

I know it’s confusing.

And complicated.

And messy.

But it’s inauthentic and dishonest, and you’re better than that.

Everyone deserves better than that.

How do you think I feel when you go back to your life?

How do you think other people would feel if they found out the truth?

I’m sorry.

I know it’s heavy.

I know it’s hard.

I know it’s like a big wtf tonne of bricks landed on your path.

But the path is now a fork in the road.

One door closes the other.

You have to make a decision.

And I need to know what that is.

I love you. I see you. I feel you.

I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

Signing off, for now

Something I’ve realised lately, or rather, something that is coming into focus for me at this time, is that sometimes I jump the gun on sharing pieces of myself and pieces of what I’m learning, with the world.

Even though it’s always with the best of intentions, I know that sometimes in my excitement over a new insight or new piece of information, I rush to put it out there for everyone to share in, without properly integrating that wisdom into myself.

I’ve been reflecting on this lately, as I look to my year ahead and consider how I want it to unfold. What do I want to manifest for myself and my life? How do I want to live? What do I want to spend each day doing? How do I want to feel while doing those things? And the core question bottom-lining it all, how can I be of greater service to the world?

My daily prayer is, “heal me and guide me, so that I may be of greater service to others.” This is my mission. This is my purpose. This is my WHY.

To be here. To live. To exist.

To learn and to grow.

To help and to heal.

To empower and uplift.

To be of service.

I so desire to forge deep connections with like-minded people. I so desire to serve a large audience, to impact change on a large-scale.

I so desire to see the lives of those I love shift and change in response to the brave inner work they commit themselves to.

I so desire to see the world around me rise up in light and in love, in consciousness, in healing, in health, in happiness.

I ask myself daily, what can I do to further these ambitions. How can I show up bigger and better. How can I be of greater service to the world?

Well, I’ve come to a conclusion. And the fact that it is sure to challenge me, tells me it is exactly the move I need to make.

So, here is me, Boldly She, signing off for a month.

No blogging.

No Facebook.

No Instagram.

No online activity (bar the odd FB message for those who can’t reach me via text or phone call).

I’ll miss being here, connecting and communicating with you all.

But right now, I know that what I need most of all is to connect deeper with myself and communicate clearer with the universe.

You can find me amongst the trees, hanging with Mama N. Or at the beach listening to her ocean melody. Or under the stars, connecting to those cosmic origins from whence we all came.

I wish you all the most amazing February! Don’t let these eclipses rock you too hard, ride the waves, allow what comes up for you to teach you what it needs to, and allow what falls away to go graciously from your life.

You’ve got this.

And the universe has got you.

All my love,

xBS

Super Blue Blood Moon x Leo

(Art – IG @ketnipz)

Everything is teaching us something. Everything is giving us choices and opportunities. Everything happens for a reason.

Our task, as humans having this life experience, is simply that, to have a life experience.

So the question is, what are we experiencing?

What are we choosing to experience?

How are we choosing to experience things?

 

At every moment we have a choice, and the best possible choice we can make, is in service to our highest selves; the choice that feels the best, that resonates at a deep core level.

It’s so easy to move through the world completely unaware or ourselves and our surroundings. It’s how we’ve been programmed. Buy this and you’ll be happy, look like this and you’ll be happy, go here and you’ll be happy. Media, marketing, music – it’s all in our face, all the time. Telling us to go this way and that way; but just like the donkey & the carrot, the destination / the prize keeps moving further & further ahead.

What if we could stop for a moment, get quiet with ourselves, and assess the state of our lives, our own happiness and fulfilment?

What if we could be honest with ourselves, about who we are, and the ways in which we may have been selling ourselves short as we move through the world?

What if we could truly reach our fullest potential, achieve our craziest far-out dreams, and live lives that absolutely fill us up, each & every day?

Well, buckle your seat-belts homies, cos we are in for a big one this week. 

 

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This next full moon is also a supermoon, a blue moon, and a total lunar eclipse, happening in the fire sign of Leo.

A “FULL” moon happens when the sun & moon are directly opposite in our skies, highlighting conflict or opposition between our head (the sun) & hearts (the moon).

A “SUPER” moon means that the moon is closest to the earth in her elliptical orbit, so she is brighter in our skies and her energetic pull is stronger.

A “BLOOD” moon is another way of saying that this will be a total lunar eclipse, which happens when the earth is between the sun and the moon, so the earth’s shadow falls over the moon’s surface, tinging her red in our skies.

And a “BLUE” moon means this is our second full moon of the calendar month. With our first falling on 2 January 2017, and no full moons next month during February, this is a pretty rare occurrence.

So, what does all that mean for us?

 

With the moon (our emotions) in leo, the ultimate ego sign, and the sun (our ego) in aquarius, the sign of the collective, the interconnectedness of our inner & outer worlds is up for review. As with all polarity points on the zodiac wheel, we are asked to find the balance, to find the sweet spot here on Earth, smack bang in the middle of it all. To be here now.

 

“As above, so below.”

My favourite one-liner. Our inner worlds and outer worlds are reflections of one another. The chaos and pain we see playing out collectively across the globe, is a mirror manifestation of that which we are each individually feeling and healing within.

All is being brought up to be seen, both in our personal lives and the wider reality. It all must be faced, and must be loved, before it can be released.

And that’s what an eclipse is ultimately about.

Eclipsing something out.

Releasing.

Setting ourselves free.

 

“To heal the world we must first heal ourselves.” 

This full moon lunar eclipse completes a cycle initiated 6 months ago, with the new moon solar eclipse that happened in leo in early August last year.

Think back, recall, what we have been moving through since then? How have our lives changed? Both internally and externally?

How are we a reflection of our environment? Those people, places, or things we give our time to? What influences are we open to, either conscious or otherwise?

How is our environment a reflection of us? What are the moments of happiness, tension, or anxiety, truly mirroring back to us? Where is the joy? Where is the pain?

We must dig deeper, ask ourselves why we feel the way we feel, and then take action accordingly.

 

We mustn’t rush, we must tread slowly, mindfully. With gratitude and love to ourselves and each other as we navigate these waters, individually and together.

Too often we are focused on the end goal, and in the rush to get there we forget the point, that it’s meant to be fun!

We’re meant to enjoy ourselves along the way!

This month’s eclipse is highlighting the above with aspects to Jupiter (abundance, growth, expansion) and Venus (beauty, joy, sensual enjoyment).

So kick back, take a breath, take stock.

Thank yourself, thank the universe, thank your guides.

And have some fun! Make some magic! BE YOU! Be your best & brightest self. Let your light shine for all to see. And watch how the world changes before your very eyes, into the world of your dreams.

 


Sign specific guidance for the Super Blue Blood Moon X Leo – questions to consider, and a galactic guide who’s got your back.

Read for your sun, moon & rising signs if you know them (click here to learn how), to get a more accurate and unique picture of how these energies might be playing out for you.

 

ARIES

What will you do today, to live in alignment with your higher self?

SANAT KUMARA – Light Activation

  • “Shine your light. Your internal guidance is coming through loud & clear.”
  • Sanat Kumara, which means “Eternal Youth”, is an advanced cosmic light being who is dedicated to helping the Earth rise up towards the light. He is, as far as I’m concerned, the leader of the Keepers of the Light. He has been acknowledged as a god in Hinduism and in the Mahabharata  story, which has come down from heaven bearing God’s divine plan. In more recent times he has been acknowledged as coming from Venus and bringing through unconditional love. He has eyes that are made of the cosmos, with the ability to penetrate the soul and activate its brightest light yet. He can seem otherworldly because his looks are beyond human. He is a being of light, shining with the purest intentions. His twin flame is Lady Venus. Together they activate the heart and light of those who welcome their help so they can shine brighter than ever.
  • You are here to light up the world. You may feel that you are being pushed or that there is a lot going on at once, and this is because your energy is magnetic to others and they want it in their life. Take the time to listen to your inner voice. Remember the cosmic light of heaven and draw it into you. That is all you need to do to inspire the world.

 

TAURUS

Where are you playing small in your life? In what ways could you shine bigger and brighter?

KRISHNA – Devotion

  • “Trust your spiritual guidance. Your commitment has been recognised. You are loved unconditionally.”
  • Krishna is a Hindu god who is known as Mahavatar (great avatar) and embodies divine wisdom. One of India’s best-loved gods, he is an approachable, kind, loving and supportive guide. He is a peaceful being with a great love for all people and animals. He is often depicted with a calf or a lamb, which is a symbol of innocence, and a peacock feather on his head, which is said to honour the divine feminine. He was the spiritual guide of the warrior soul Arjuna, as related in the Hindu epic Bhagavad Gita (which really is a story of choosing love over fear), and helps us move beyond the limitations and wars our ego creates in our mind, and maybe even in the world around us. His twin flame is Radha.
  • You have a deep spiritual connection and must trust the guidance that’s coming through. Your devotion to the spiritual path has been recognised. It may feel as if you’ve been on a mental/emotional battlefield, but there are sweet messages of hope around you now. Krishna is here to boost your sense of connection to the divine and encourage you to act from your soul. If a decision needs to be made, ask yourself what will honour your soul and those around you. If you can choose the best for all involved then you will feel even closer to the divine.

 

GEMINI

What kind of music brings you to life? Are there any singers or musicians who move your soul?

THE MYRIAM – Sacred Vision

  • “Choose to forgive in order to heal. See the light in all. Remember that love has no boundaries.”
  • The Myriam, which means ‘the Beloved’, are twin flame angels who come as one. They are mirror images of each other. They are the angels who appeared to Mary Magdalene in the tomb of Jesus after his passing. These angels spoke directly to Mary and helped her move beyond her grief so that she was able to commune with Jesus once more. They can help us move beyond the cloud of grief too. They heal grievances of all kinds, including ones that have been created by religion or the idea that God does not love or accept us because of a mistake we once made. The Myriam help us remember that we don’t need to ask God for forgiveness because ‘he’ never condemned us in the first place.
  • There is a real opportunity for you to move beyond grief or grievance at this time. The Myriam are here, swirling their holy light all around you so that you can regain a sense of union with spirit. You are loved beyond words. Choose to see the light of God in everyone and everything and to love without boundaries. Honour others and honour yourself with your sacred vision. You are in a space of deep healing and forgiveness. Choosing to see the light of the world will help you grow even more.

 

CANCER

Do you make time to play? How do you play and how does this make you feel?

KALI-MA – Facing Fear

  • “Major spiritual changes are unfolding. This is your chance to soar.”
  • Kali-Ma is the Hindu goddess of death and rebirth. She brings old cycles to an end so we can experience transformation. She is a strong, fierce, fiery and powerful image of the divine feminine. Many have been intimidated by her, but she is a mother energy and therefore completely loving – she’s like a fierce mother protecting her child from harm. She has a dark energy like the night sky, but it consumes fear and leaves only love. She is the twin flame of the god Shiva and has even been known to slay his ego so that he can reveal his true loving self.
  • This is a time when you are able to look fear in the eye and move away from it. Fear is just energy, and energy can be changed. This can be an intense experience because the human self is so conditioned that it may be used to operating with fear present. When the fear is gone, it may feel as though an emptiness is there, but this is space for love and miracles to enter. You are being filled with the courage of spirit now so that you can move from this phase of your life to the next. Trust the process and call on Kali-Ma to help you release your fear and step into a space that’s strong, focused and courageous.

 

LEO

Do you notice the energy in and around you? In what ways are you protective or conscious of your energy?

JOAN OF ARC – Voice of Truth

  • “Stand strong. Focus on your purpose. Release the fear of persecution and speak your truth.”
  • Joan of Arc was a medieval French peasant girl who is reported to have been visited by Archangel Michael and other saints, who gave her information on how she could help Charles VII save France from English domination. She was only a teenager when she went into battle for her country and won a huge victory. She was, however, later captured and burned at the stake. These days she is a supremely loving guide to all those who want to stand up against the odds. She also helps many light-workers overcome their fear of persecution.
  • You are being encouraged to stand strong. You may feel unrecognised and misunderstood, but that doesn’t mean you have to give up on the mission you feel called to fulfil. You must follow the will of your soul and exercise your leadership spirit by speaking your truth. You may feel as if you are on a battlefield, but this conflict will come to an end as soon as you stop defending yourself. You are not here to prove yourself to others. Instead, approve of yourself. Know that your angels are on your side and that heaven is thanking you for being the honest soul you are.

 

VIRGO

What experiences or people are you most grateful for at the moment?

CHARITY – Prayer and Contemplation

  • “Connect with heave. Ask and you shall receive.”
  • Faith, Hope and Charity are a trinity of archangels who are dedicated to helping us regain our natural traits of kindness, trust and faith in the highest good. Charity is the twin flame of Archangel Chamuel. She has a great spirit that encourages us to undertake the spiritual practices of prayer and mediation. Prayer is the way we speak with the divine and mediation is the way we open ourselves to receive the answers we need to hear. Charity is also the angel who kisses the forehead of all those who pray in support of others. She absolutely loves to see this kindness because it creates an inspirational healing wave of goodwill to the world.
  • The powerful Archangel Charity is drawing close to you at this time because she has recognised that you have goodness in your heart and you have put others first. She brings you thanks and support. Move into prayer and mediation with regard to any decisions you have to make at this time. You are being guided to take the time to breathe and receive. Know that you will have a real surge of intuition when it’s time to move forwards. Thank the angels for guiding you towards your highest good, and welcome Charity into the space with you.

 

LIBRA

If you didn’t need to earn money, would you still work or volunteer? What would you do and why?

GAIA – Earth Connection

  • “Be mindful of the planet. Come back to Earth. Stay grounded.”
  • Gaia is Mother Earth. She is the Keeper of the Light who holds the planet in her hands and heart. Her kiss is on every animal’s forehead. She is the life that moves through the plants, the sweetness within the honey, and the force that encourages bees to fly. She loves, protects, and guides all beings. She asks us to love them too. How can we help them? How can we help the planet?
  • You are blessed to receive this Great Mother card today because it shows that the Earth itself, through the image of Gaia, is protecting your path. You are a strong, focused and loving individual. Stay grounded and don’t allow your imagination, ego or fears to run away with you. Ensure your choices are for the highest good. Gaia is also bringing her motherly love to you and encircling you in a cocoon of peace. If you have had troubles with a mother in your own life, or are feeling disconnected from, or grieving your own mother, Gaia helps revitalise that connection and will bring healing where it is possible. If you are a mother and are worrying about these duties, know that Gaia is thanking you for your hard work and commitment. The Earth is blessed to have you.

 

SCORPIO

How can you make today richly soulful, spirited, and special?

THE DIVINE DIRECTOR – Intervention and Purpose

  • “Divine intervention is occurring. Know that you are being guided. Happiness is your purpose.”
  •  The Divine Director is a facet of the heart of the Creator. According to New Thought teaching, his energy is merged directly with God’s divine plan so that we can access it and understand on a deeper level what will support our true function, which is to be happy. The Divine Director works directly with angels, and in particular guardian angels, so that they can fulfil their role of supporting the Earth and all her people. Right now your angels are reminding you that your divine purpose on Earth is to remember how to love and do what makes you happy.
  • Divine intervention is taking place at this time – what is occurring in your life is providing a real learning curve for your soul. You are becoming aware of a sense of purpose in your life. It gives you pleasure rather than something you have to work for. Know that your career can complement your purpose but not define it. But the path you are on at this time is right, and the universe is encouraging you to move forwards.

 

SAGITTARIUS

Do you pray? Who do you pray to? Why is prayer important to you?

ODIN – Psychic Insight

  • “Your third eye is open. See truth for what it is. Follow your intuition.”
  • Odin is the Norse ‘all-father’ god and is revered to the present day. He is a powerful, all-seeing, and all-knowing god. His twin flame is Freya and, like her, he has a raven totem. The story goes that he surrendered one of his eyes at a mystical spring called Mimir so that he could gain the wisdom of the ages. He is a strong but somewhat wild character who helps us reawaken our natural psychic instincts and open our third eye so that we can look beyond the physical senses and into the spiritual realms. He also helps us recognise that it’s okay to have insights into what’s happening next. After all, we are the creators of our own path. Odin guards the runic alphabet, too, and works closely with signs, symbols and omens.
  • You are being encouraged to look beyond what your physical eyes are showing you. Look within and follow your intuition or psychic visions. You may want to plan ahead at this time. It’s important to keep your mind and energy focused on the best possible outcome. There will be signs and symbols from the light to tell you that you are on the right path. Be aware of winged beings gracing your path as a wink from Odin and the light keepers to say that they are honouring your work.

 

CAPRICORN

Where is your life out of balance? Indulge your intuition for a moment and ask your inner self what you need to feel whole, balanced, and well?

FAITH – Humanity and Benevolence

  • “Stay calm. Trust the good in yourself and others. See the light in the world.”
  • Faith is the archangel who is focused on bringing out our benevolence. She is the twin flame of Archangel Michael and is on a divine mission to help us recognise that humans are basically good and aligned with love. Just like her name, she is all about faith and trust. She reminds us that the world has taught us to believe that we are separate from love, and that if we begin to see the good in others, then we will start to cultivate a loving experience of the world around us.
  • Stay calm and breathe. You are a divine being of love who has done so much good in the world. You may be going through personal transformations and feel that you’re not getting anywhere, but Archangel Faith is drawing close to guide you beyond the limitations that your ego or fears have created for you. You may be trying to work out whom to trust. First trust yourself. When you do this and recognise that you are made of love, you will attract those who reflect that love and can enjoy true friendships and loving relationships. Know that good is here to stay.

 

AQUARIUS

Do you pay attention to your dreams? What messages or guidance have they been giving you lately?

HORUS – Cosmic Gateway

  • “Your thoughts are magnetic and powerful. Miraculous changes are occurring.”
  • Horus is the Egyptian eagle-headed god and son/twin flame of the goddess Isis. He is known for his foresight, psychic awareness and ability to travel between the worlds. He can help us move into the cosmos with our mind, mediations and prayers, so that we can harness the natural magic that surrounds us. He was known for ritual magic in the past, and now he helps create pockets of energy in the world where we can access light, wisdom and insight. If you are seeing the symbol of an eye appearing around you, know that Horus is asking you to become aware of how you are influencing the energy around you, and how it in turn is influencing you.
  • You are connected to the universe and have the ability to manifest miraculous experiences. Your thoughts, words, and actions are like magnets drawing the energy that creates and cultivates your world. You have a stellar gateway chakra above your head, a vortex of energy that is influenced by your own energy. You can place ideas into this vortex to create what you are seeking. The universe also offers you guidance, abundance, support and healing based on your capacity to connect to it and accept it. You have a real opportunity to further that connection now by sending prayers and intentions out into the cosmos.

 

PISCES

What soulful habits or rituals would you like to weave into your life on a daily basis?

CERNUNOUS – Life-force

  • “Express your driving passion. Sensual and sexual powers are increased.”
  • Cernunnous (pronounced Ker-nun-os), also known as Herne, is a Celtic stag god who represents connection to the Earth. He is one of the oldest recognised Celtic gods and features on the Gundestrup cauldron, a giant silver vessel from the Iron Age. He is a lover of the Great Mother and impregnates the land so that it will be filled with life. He can help us form a connection with the animal spirits and ancestors of our land.
  • There is a deep build-up of life-force within you now and a need to channel it into action. You may have extra energy or be more alert than usual, or be aware of a sense of increased sensual or sexual energy. If you have been unsure how this ties into your spiritual path, know that it can allow you to access the richness of your soul. When we are not expressing ourselves sexually, our spiritual potential can become tamed or muted, so if you are denying yourself a desire, ask yourself how you can fulfil it. Ask Cernunnous to help you access your sexual self so that you can express it with integrity, and in a way that honours your soul. If you and your partner are trying for a child and this card appears, fertility is very possible, especially if Brigid, Cernunnos’ twin flame, is present too.

FEBRUARY: pisces

ORACLE – 49 – Talisman

“A lesson truly learned is crystallised as earned wisdom. You have all you need for the success you seek.”

Wisdom allows you to recognise traps on the road and familiar patterns that you want to avoid. It also enables you to quickly gather information about where you are on your journey. It helps you to recognise your allies and know how to find the best routes along the way. Now you’re at a place where you know the right things to do and the best choice to make. Whatever your inquiry, great fortune awaits you, for you have the wisdom to arrive at the right decision. You’re learned your lessons and earned the right to your success.

 

TAROT – the Empress – Fertility

Through this card, the manifestation of growth is on the horizon. You’re the creator, and the seeds that have been planted in the past – whether they were happiness, comfort, abundance, prosperity, family, children, ideas, or even thoughts – are now ready to give birth into your world. Be patient as you watch your seeds take root and grow. Nurture them as they become strong and healthy. Open yourself to the life force of the universe. This card also represents femininity and Mother Earth, who is calling to you. The arms of her beauty are reaching out; she wants to embrace you on her seashores, mountains, forests and gardens – go to her and meet her halfway. Acknowledge that the same energy that makes up the heavens, earth, plants, animals, and mineral kingdom, is also a part of you. Start nurturing yourself, and infuse your soul with love and compassion. Soon others will see and feel your devotion. As you interact with others around you now, or even if you’re in the midst of solving a problem, use gentle care and kindness as you handle such situations. This isn’t a time for you to be inconsiderate, possessive, domineering, forceful, or pushy. Act from the loving space of your heart centre. The benevolent energy that resides there will assist you in making sacrifices in order to care for and help others, as well as yourself.

 

❤ ROMANCE ANGEL MESSAGE – Healing family issues

“Your love life benefits as you forgive your parents.”

The answers to your prayers about your love life are based in your feelings about your mother and father. The Romance Angels see that you’d benefit from releasing old anger toward one or both of them. That’s because your feelings about your parents influence your choice of romantic partner, and the way in which you deal with relationships. You can ask the angels to help you put forgiveness into action. To forgive someone doesn’t mean that you’re endorsing his or her behaviour. The angels will tell you, rather, that doing so is a form of deep emotional detoxification. It means: “I’m no longer willing to carry toxic energy within my mind and body.” When you find inner peace with your parents, you’ll no longer need to attract unhealthy relationship patterns and partners as a way of healing family emotional wounds. All of your relationships, especially the one with yourself, will benefit.

 

GUIDE – Indriel

“You are a light-worker. The universe needs you to shine your Divine light and love – like an angel – upon the Earth and all of her inhabitants.”

Yes, you are a light-worker. As such, you have always had a burning desire to make the world a better place. It is a deep calling that is beyond time and space. You are often called into service during ordinary circumstances, such as when you’re shopping for groceries and someone needs your help. Right now, your life’s mission is expanding so that you can reach even more people. This will require you to make some life changes that you will learn about through your inner guidance You are deeply sensitive to others’ emotions, and it is important for you to clear yourself regularly – especially after helping someone. You can call upon Archangel Michael, your other guardian angels, and me, to clear you of toxins or cords that may have resulted from your helpful efforts. You are an Earth angel, and we are happy to assist you in all ways. Just ask!

FEBRUARY: aquarius

ORACLE – 12 – Slow and steady

“Slow and steady wins the race.”

Remember the old cliche, “slow and steady wins the race”? This is a time for easy movement, unhurried steps, and a steady heart. Trust that taking life at a more leisurely pace will give you greater access to your dreams. Slowing down allows more contact with the juicier elements of your life. Savour them.

 

TAROT – 9 of Air – Suffering in silence

The number 9 denotes completion. Are you finally ready to let go of those limiting, negative beliefs, or are you allowing the issues in your life to become bigger than they really are? Your mind has been doing quite a job on you lately, and even your dreams may be trying to get your attention. When you learn to let go of the worry, despair, and sense of hopelessness, a positive new way or path will be shown to you. This card follows “trapped in fear”, the 8 of Air: when your fears aren’t confronted, your mental anguish will continue. This is a reminder to take action and trust that your soul and the power of Spirit will grasp you firmly by the hand and guide you, but you must take the first step toward healing and let go of the mental distress. Don’t suffer in silence – reach out for the help that’s available.

 

❤ ROMANCE ANGEL MESSAGE – Give your relationship a chance

“Work on your partnership.”

The Romance Angels see that your relationship is worth devoting effort to. Although there may be issues, these can be worked through and healed. You’ll need to commit to the relationship to ensure the best chance of success. At the very least, if you do end it, you’ll know that you gave it your all. You’ll also understand the role that you played in the dynamics. In this way, you’ll avoid attracting similarly painful situations in the future. You received this card because there’s hope for your partnership. The love is still there! Working with a counsellor may be your best option at this point. This professional can identify areas of dysfunction and guide you both in healthier directions.

 

GUIDE – Azure

“Your desired outcome will occur in the very near future. Have patience and faith, and don’t try to force it to happen.”

Yes, you will receive your wish. However, Divine timing means that patience and positive visualisation are needed right now. Ask me to help buoy your faith so that you don’t slip into negativity. You can speed up the process of answered prayers by having more faith in their inevitability. Conversely, doubts or worries about ‘how’ your prayers will be answered will slow them down. Remember that the ‘how’ of answered prayers is up to the Divine wisdom of the universe. Although you may feel urgency or even panic about your prayers, please trust that we angels are working non-stop behind the scenes to help you. Keep surrendering and releasing these worries and fears to the universe and us angels. The more that you can stay centred in faith, the more easily we can assist you.

 

FEBRUARY: capricorn

ORACLE – 25 – Metamorphosis

“You are in the process of deep and beautiful change.”

Butterflies earn their wings through great effort. The process of change is often painful, for it is never without losses and sacrifices. If you are to transform from one form to another, a part of you needs to die. Letting go isn’t easy, especially when you’re used to thinking a certain way about your life and how you live it. Just as a snake sheds its dead skin, or a caterpillar “dies” so that a butterfly can be born, you’re required to release your old ideas and embrace a necessary change so you can live your best life. Perhaps you’re being asked to let go of low self-worth, a dream that no longer serves you, a relationship that is draining, or unhealthy habits. Despite your, fear you must accept that this a transformational time for you. There will be some loss involved, but you’ll love what you become.

(*NB – Second month in a row with this card Cappy! Take note!*)

 

TAROT – 6 of Air – Moving on

You’re about to embark on a much needed journey to leave the past behind. This card lets you know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and it signifies that the time has arrived in which a difficult cycle in your life is coming to an end. In the traditional tarot, this card also implies travelling or going forward – involving crossing water or even moving abroad. Calmer waters are ahead, and with all the lessons you’ve learned from past experiences, you’re approaching this period having grown, and you’re so much stronger for it. The healing process is underway, and now you can set your goals, desires, and objectives to secure a more positive and successful future. Because your mind is more settled and less worried, synchronistic events will bring the right conditions and introduce people into your life for your highest good.

 

❤ ROMANCE ANGEL MESSAGE – True love

“This is the romance of a lifetime!”

You pulled this card because true and lasting love is here for you. If your question was about a specific person, then this card serves as validation of the relationship’s Divine nature. This individual has genuine love for you, and you both can overcome the issues that arise. This is especially the case if you can express your feelings through attributes such as kindness, compassion, and courtesy toward each other. For instance, having honest conversations would be an expression of your true love – even if it involves discussing uncomfortable topics. If you’re currently seeking a relationship, this card offers you assurance that true love is on it’s way. Keep the faith that a wonderful relationship is destined to come to you, and don’t compromise with an unsuitable partner. It’s essential that you treat yourself well by taking excellent care of yourself, for the foundation of a true-love relationship is two people who cherish who they are.

 

GUIDE – Athena

“It is safe for you to be powerful. You know how to be powerful in a loving way that benefits others as well as yourself.”

You have been afraid of your own power. You have worried that others would disapprove of you or leave you if you allowed your true power to shine. You have also been concerned that you might abuse your power and that your masculine energy would become unbalanced. I am here to help you reveal your power to yourself and others in a way that enhances your relationships, self-esteen, and life purpose. Your power comes from love, from the universe. You who are made in the image and likeness of your Creator have unlimited power within you right now. You aren’t capable of abusing your power because your heart chakra has opened like a flower in bloom. Think of a person whom you admire, who is powerful and balanced in their masculine and feminine energies. Such power is beautiful. It also amplifies your spiritual healing and psychic gifts. You are a strong and powerful light-worker, and the universe needs you to accept and reveal your true power.

 

FEBRUARY: sagittarius

ORACLE – 16 – Rescue

“You are always safe & secure, and free to be yourself!”

Asking for help isn’t easy for many successful people. However, that’s what you need to do now as you expand your life. If you find yourself troubled, you can expect help with whatever issue is at hand now. You need only ask, and assistance will come your way. The most important support you can expect is from Spirit. Get into a right relationship with the Divine and you’ll see that many conditions line up as if by magic to provide you with all the help you need. Ask and you will receive. There is no need to fear. Safety is a place within.

 

TAROT – Death – Transformation

A time of endings is at hand. Don’t resist the abrupt changes that are suddenly happening in your life. These could be taking place in your personal life, relationships, business, or career. You have the strength, as the Transformation Card asks you to have courage and to know that renewal follows every conclusion. This card comes forth to remind you that death of an old way of thinking and believing must occur before you can move forward on your new path. Transformation is all about the ebb and flow of life cycles. Nothing in this life remains motionless; everything is on its way to somewhere. Accept the changes, and opportunity will come to expand you in more ways than you could have ever imagined! You can’t live in the past – it’s time to move on. In order to take the next positive step, you should look closely at your own life and ask yourself: Are there loose ends that need to be tied up? Are there people in my life whom I need to express myself to? What needs to be completed so that I can have a fresh start? When you do so, you’ll have a stronger, more reinforced foundation to carry you through the new beginnings that await you.

 

❤ ROMANCE ANGEL MESSAGE – Getting to know each other

“As you reveal your innermost selves to each other, your bond deepens.”

The Romance Angels are guiding you to create intimacy with your partner by revealing your true feelings, your dreams and desires, and the other innermost aspects of yourselves. You discover commonalities and learn new ways of thinking. If you’re presently in a relationship, this card is a message of healing through honest dialogue. This is particularly true if you’ve stuffed down feelings instead of discussing them with your partner. Perhaps sitting together with a counsellor will give you the strength and support to admit them. Regardless, this card clearly guides you toward holding deep and honest discussions for the benefit of your love life.

 

GUIDE – Yvonne

“You have a special bond with animals. Your pets on Earth and in Heaven are watched over by angels.”

Animals respond to your kind and gentle ways. You have a special understanding of them. You can relate to the innocence and trusting nature of animals, and you feel a call to help them. I am one of your guardian angels, and I am here to tell you of the beautiful ripple effect that your relationship with animals has created. Your love for animals has also forged a deep bond and appreciation with you and the nature angels. All of the animals whom you have ever loved continue to be with you like guardian angels. Your love for them keeps these animals at your side forever. Your pets in Heaven are happy, spiritually healthy, and playful and affectionate. Your pets on Earth are surrounded by angels who bestow miracles upon you and them. In many ways, the animals act as angels for you and your loved ones. You are someone who truly appreciates the angelic qualities of animals. You are able to communicate wordlessly with these wondrous creatures, and your special bond with the animal kingdom is opening new doors for you right now.