xBS

she needed something new

a fresh journal

a blank page

a clean slate

to mirror the changes elsewhere in her world.

the new chapter

the new feels

the new version of herself.

for too long she had been lost

hiding

afraid

unsure.

held back

by forces

greater,

magnified

by fears

her own.

free

finally,

she was inspired once again

motivated once again

passionate once again.

the words were ready

to flow

unrestricted

uninhibited

unlimited

but the new words needed a new home.

so she redesigned the space

the look

the feel,

she cleared the clutter

the old

releasing

letting go

moving on.

yet she is rusty

the words don’t come

as clean

and clear

as she had so hoped they would

for so long.

she knows she must be patient

and pause

listen

allow.

the rising

crashing

breaking.

the ocean

of consciousness

of awareness

self-consciousness

self-awareness.

she was a bird

who forgot how to fly

who forgot she had wings

who forgot how to sing

the song in her heart

caged

by her own fears

her own faults

her own failures

under the microscope

of her self

the self she was learning to love

to embrace

to accept.

with a light

too bright to bear

a weight

too heavy to hold

yet a knowing

that somehow

she must

find the way

find the strength

find the courage

to step forth

and be seen

for all that she was

all that she is

all that she will become.

fearful

flawed

failed

but whole

complete

at peace

with her past

her present

and her future ✨

 

xBS

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